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Indescribable Mood…

6.30 am – Tummy gave me problem.
6.45 am – Bathroom was being occupied by LatZz
7.00 am – Rushing into the bathroom
7.15 am – Getting ready to work but totally not satisfy with my outfit today
7.35 am – Catching up the bus to town
7.40 am – Reached town and follow the van to work

BUT…my tummy gave me problem again all the way to my work place…

9.00 am – Reading the Bible & praying
9.15 am – Start working and log in to my email
9.20 am – The pressure begins
9.25 am – Cooling down myself
9.30 am – Calling to the relevant department and being passed around to so many people and in the end the message was being taken wrongly
9.35 am – Calling to other department – no answer
9.40 am – Calling to F & B department – a guy answer my call but didn’t answer my question and hang up my call

And the story continues…..The situation that caught me in the middle and I can’t do much while have to wait for those people who take their own sweet time to reply to me.

Man…what kind of organization is this? Are they really serious in the work?

Feels like the volcano is going to erupt in anytime…

No, I must learn to have a godly anger…Okie, be slow in anger and quick to listen…Now, take a deep breath…Slowly exhale….

It’s time to get back to work…..


Ziklag Experience

Finally, I am back for this old & dusty blog…

Somehow, I have lost my passion to write nor to read…Everything just seems like a stranger to me. Just last week my shepherd has shared with me about the Ziklag experience and I am facing it now.

Again, I did not seek upon the LORD’s strength just like how David did in 1 Samuel 30. Something has been bothering me so much. It is just too heavy for me to carry nor to bear it anymore.

I just want to be away for a moment. It might 1 month and it might be 1 year. Who doesn’t wants to follow God’s will? I am seeking for HIS direction. Is it the time for me to step my feet on the other land or I still need to stay?

Only the LORD knows how I felt right at this very moment.

The ‘ L I T T L E ‘ Things

As usual on Monday morning I will get affected by the so called “Monday Blues” and added with tomorrow is a public holiday, I somehow dragged my feet to work!

Somehow or someway, my hands clicked on a forwarded email which I will delete without reading it but it is something that enlightens me this morning.

Well, here it is:

As you might remember, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn’t go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

Car wouldn’t start.

One couldn’t
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work
But before he got there, he developed
a blister on his foot.

He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today..

Now when I am
Stuck in traffic ,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone …

All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where
God wants me to be
At this very moment..

Next time your morning seems to be
Going wrong ,

You can’t seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don’t get mad or frustrated;
It May be just that
God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.

Thanks, Neng for sharing this with me 🙂

Itchy Day


I have been using SUNSILK for 4 days and my head is itchy like never before.

I have been scratching my head from this morning until now….

I used to be a SUNSILK lover and what happened? Why it no longer give me a fresh & clean feelings?

It turned out to be super itchy…


Today happens to be the day I am looking forward but….

I am tired of replying emails….

No mood at all…

Eating alone…

Waiting to go back home…

Another 1 hour journey…


Forgive my nonsense here….Just can’t find the right place to express the massive complicated feelings that I had now….


I wish for…..


Well, wish after all is still a wish…

I just can’t figure it out why I have to be super moody especially this week…

Last night was even worse!

Looking at baby Rach crying and with my tiredness, I really want to cry as well…That shows that my emo was in the worse stage ever in my life….

Slept for 4 hours ++ with Rach crying looking for papa & mama…..

Rach can be very cute when she’s not crying and cranky but when it comes to….ermm..don’t feel like elaborate more…

Whatever it is, I still love her….

But why am I super moody?

Sign of PMS?

Or something that has been bothering me???????

Aaaarrgggghhhhhh….Just felt like screaming….

Well, I am somehow turned evolved into a time bomb now..

Anyhow, anywhere I can just explode…



It took me so long until I’ve found the mood to write something about my new job here…


Aerial View Of My Work Place

Nothing new isn’t it?

“Some Say It’s Heaven”

What do you think? Well, last time I used to name it the other way due to bad experience during my industrial training…

But here I am once again….Stepped my feet into this Prestigious Resort again but this time with different identity.

I am not exactly working with the resort although my office is in the Resort itself. I am attached with its sister company, Nexus Bay Resort Karambunai selling residences.

I never thought that those residences could be so nice. ALL facing the sea.

This is it….

Nice isn’t it?

Well, this job requires social skills, patience, details and of course professionalism which I think I’m just half way there.

Thank God that He knew I need such environment to work.

People in the resort are friendly and whether you know each other or not, they will still SMILE at you..

If being asked whether I missed my previous work place? Honestly, I did. I’ve been there for 5 years to be exact. I knew everything, inside-out of my job, I am confident and I knew my boss very well. I have more colleagues that can talk and joke around.

What about here? Everything is still green for me. I am adapting and many ones said that I am a fast learner? Am I? Or does that a statement that makes me feel good?

Once again, I would like to thank God for putting nice colleague to work with; my Senior Sales Manager. A strong lady and very keen and confidence on what she wants in her life. She has been a great companion to me in the office and guess what? She stuffed me with lots of nice food…

What is the thing that I don’t enjoy about this work then? 1 hour travel from Kota Kinabalu to the Resort. That is because the company van fetch the staff from various places. Such a nice van driver and I would award him with the FAITHFUL & DILIGENT staff.

Okay, another email popped up and is waiting for me to reply….


The bible says that the light and the dark cannot fellowship together.

It is also written that the believers shall not yoke with unbelievers.

The question is, when these people with two beliefs fall in love to one another and what is the ending?

They have taken the forbidden fruit, so what is the consequences?

Is it wrong to fall in love with the personality instead of beliefs?

Why does these beliefs makes two person who falls in love apart?

Just like how Esau married two pagans women and caused heartache to Isaac?

Just like how Samson falls for Delilah?

Another day of thoughts for you and I to ponder through.

Heaps & Heaps of Heartache

How can you O Human can be so blinded by your own thoughts?

How can you be so selfish and succumbed to your egoism?

How can you think that I, someone who called to cheer you up is controlling you?

I Wanna Grow Old With You

The first time that I saw you
You were sitting at the table
Coming up to you
Begin this story of me and you

Day by day we grew closer
And now God gave us forever

You know that I’ll be here for you
That is true
Even though there’ll be ups and downs
But a promise I make

My love, I will be here for you
That is true
Teardrops and heartaches will come and go
But a promise I make
Is to grow old with you

Waking up to a smile everyday
Cherishing these moments in every way
50 years even from now, baby
I’ll still be here, smiling back at you

Looking where we’ve been and now
At last we stand here making true love’s vow

Sorry if I forget to kiss you, hold your hand
Sometimes we’ll do the things we don’t understand
But from the bottom of my heart
This promise I make to you

Lyrics by Cedric Ong & Darren Ong
Music by Darren Ong

It’s a nice try I would say. I wonder how I would response if someone wrote & compose this kind of song to me.

a) Scream “aaaaaarggggghhhhh”, I love you!

b) Ewwwwww….

c) Smiling with tears rolled down my cheeks

d) No response, nothing new

e) Not nice, maybe can change the lyrics

f) Throw away the CD

g) Hahahahahha…Laughing and rolling on the floor because it’s funny

h) Say “I DO”

Anyway, it’s just a random thoughts.